I do not want to get out of bed. I do not want to open the curtains. Willing rain this way, with all its wondrous gloom. The thought of the day and what it has to bring only intensifies these feelings as I burrow under my blankets. I cannot even get up to go to the bathroom, then I will have to face a being in the mirror.
I crawl out of my cocoon because I know Coco needs to go out. I must at least be a good enough mommy to walk her. As I drag myself back inside I make my way to my yoga mat. I do not have the energy to flow. I barely have energy to sit up. I set my Tibetan Singing Bowl before me and resonate with its beautiful vibrations. I choose my mantra and meditate.
It’s like the sun burning up all the storm clouds and shining bright inside of me. Focusing not on the outside world but within. Meditation takes the focus away from that which is holding me in a dark place. If you have never tried meditation for depression or anxiety, I highly recommend it. You do not need to go anywhere, or have anything or look a certain way, you just need to have a focus. Meditation for the Anxious goes over a couple options for meditation even when the whole world is shouting in your ear. Meditation has done more for me than any medication and there are plenty of statistics out there to share this data. We just need to quiet everything, no? The shouting, the screaming, the insults, no matter what is going on in that head of yours, meditation can draw you inward and quiet your mind like no other. Try it. Let me know what you think! I would love to hear your thoughts 🙂
Also, check out an amazing person I met via the magical internet on this exact topic, he has quite amazing posts on the matter, Jacob Quirke.